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-Blessed Be

~*~Trina~*~

look at these cuts,
these cuts on my wrists,
these cuts are cuz of u,
here, look at this,

this is my blood,
the blood everywhere,
I bled because of you,
and you dont even care,

look at the love,
the love of your life,
fading away slowly,
right before your eyes,

look at my heart,
you tore it apart,
even tho ur love wasnt true,
the peices will always belong to you,

look at my face,
lifeless, blind stare,
looking at you,
hating you for not being there,

look in your heart,
is this what you wanted?
we once had a love,
I guess you forgot it,

do me a favor and,
think about what you've done,
was my life worth taking..
was my heart worth breaking?

~*~I guess I was always a no-one~*~

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-Blessed Be

broken heart,
countless tears,
torn apart,
from your fears,
poppin pills,
cold chills,
heart breaking,
life taking,
relationships,
starts happy,
ends with sadness,
unhappily,
ever after,
no laughter,
just tears,
broke, hidden,
scared, cold,
no hope,not forgiven,
didn't care,lies told,
wishing for good,
living with the bad,
misunderstood,
believing in something,
we never had,
no sleep,
always awake,
no eating,
starving for you,
bleeding for you,
cutting for you,
dying for you,
crying for you,
cheating on me,
killing me,
so willingly,
wishing for death,
but I'm still living,
everything I had,
you took away,
you'll never be forgiven.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

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-Blessed Be

ok, it's fucking freezing in my house...we don't have ANY heat, or the money to get any, it's going to suck, I have to deal with this shit for 6 weeks!!!!

-sighs-

::Blessed Be::

~*~Trina~*~

a little girl sleeps silently in bed,
why is she so quiet?
is she dead?

you walk over to this pretty little girl,
and it smells so bad you want to hurl,
you slowly turn her body around,
and look at what you've just found,

she isn't breathing!
you check her pulse,
call the cops!
you can't do much else,

this girl has comitted suicide,
but where have you seen her before?
did you know her when she was alive?

as you look closer,
to this pretty princess,
you notice exactly who she is,

but how could it be?!
this girl is me,
I see myself dead,
laying on my bed,

slits on my wrists,
blood everywhere,
wtf happened here?!

and then someone else walks in,
you hear screams,
and everything goes black,silent,

you open your eyes,
but you aren't dead,
your wounds are stitched up,
your not in your bed,

you can't move,
you can't think,
you can't dream,
you can't sleep,

everything goes black again,
and you sleep silently,
put to an eternal rest,
rest in peace.

-Blessed Be

~*~Trina~*~

chocolate kisses,
candy lips,
strawberry tounge,
curvy hips,
one love,
two hearts,
more than just,
being friends,
who would think,
that this would end,
perfect love,
perfect heart,
but it was all,
torn apart,
you know I love you,
you know it's true,
and all the broken
peices of my heart,
will always belong to you.

-blessed be

~*~Trina~*~

this razor has taken over my mind,
making me slit my wrists this time,
I never thought this would happen to me,
but this razor has taken control of me,
cutting so deep not even seeing,
what I was doing,
not even knowing,
the pain I was feeling,
the scars will start showing,
my dark past,
everything that has ever happened to me,
flashbacks,
nightmares,
I'm in a place where there's no such thing as dreams,
I'm in a place of darkness where all you hear is screams,
don't believe me?
well it's true,
I don't know,
what happened to you,
you were there
now your gone
no one's here
I'm all alone
I need someone
so fucking bad
to wipe my tears away
when I'm sad
nothing compares,
to what I'm going through
nothing can go right
until the day I see you,
waiting for me,
in a place where dreams come true,
spending every night,
alone with you,
dreaming of you, with you, forever,
I miss when we were together,
but your gone and I can't bring you back,
I've tried, I've cried, but you didn't care,
now it seems like, you were never there,
all my memories fade away,
no one here to comfort me,
I'm all alone in the cold,
no one here that I can hold,
I miss you now I miss you bad,
I miss everything we ever had,
I'm waiting the day for you to see
what the fuck happened to me
you think I'm invisible
but I'm here
your the one
who disappeared,
It's like I'm in hell,
but it's freezing here,
waiting in a dark corner
for someone to care,
where are you now?
come and save me!
you need to! don't you care?
don't you remember the love that you gave me?
but that little whore had to take my place,
you told me that shit, right to my face,
I'll remember that forever,
and after all that, I still want us to be together,
cut after cut, tear after tear,
this is how I'll be spending my life,
until you come back here.

not finished yet, how is it so far?

-blessed be

~*~Trina~*~

I'm so fucking annoyed,my xbf kept bothering me all fucking day, asking me "what's wrong" can people get any more fucking nosy?! well he followed me all the way home, forgetting about my "mom", he's afraid that she'll chase him down the street with the machete, heh. Lucky enough for him , she wasn't home... So I told him to go home before I got the machete and chased him down the street with it, and he left.Then my dad called, which completely ruined my day.He wants us to go up to his house and spend some time with him, he lives five hours away!!!And besides, I can't miss anymore days of school, missed 13 days already. After that happened this boy jeremy came over my house, and we sat and talked for a little while, and then my "mom" came home and she thought something went on so she started bitching, but owell I don't care.. so I got my report card today, did pretty good... I guess, failed one thing and that's it.

~*~Death is the answer~*~

--Blessed Be

well, I'm really freaked out right now because AJ called and we were talking about how much he hates my xbf, and he said "heh, he's just mad" and I said "mad for what?" and he's like "that I can have you anytime I want"

Boys are soooo confusing, that's why you go bi, girls, heh...(girls are easier to understand)

But yeah, the fight I got into today was me and this girl fighting again because she had a problem with the fact that I'm bi, people need to get a life, just because I'm bi and she's a girl that doesn't mean I like her, I mean I play around like I'm hitting on my straight friends because it's fun, but I only look at bi girls that way, sorry that's just the way I am.

People who hate bi/gay/lesbians need to get a life, and worry about themselves instead of wasting their time worrying about other people,seriously, I am the way I am, and them bitching  about it and making fun of it isn't going to change that, people need to grow up and stop being so damn judgemental, if your that type of person, good luck. and I thank all the people who aren't judgemental, it's nice to know some people have commen sense....

-Blessed Be

Today sucked, heh what else is new? Phone is ringing off the hook, so many people I don't want to talk to... I ripped up my report card and got suspended for 7 days ... heh and then I was making fun of the subsitute, she was fucking retarded,my friend got suspended too for yelling " cheescake!!! " as she walked by, she turned around and started complaining so I called her fatass.... then I went to pick up my brothers and my xbf almost got his ass kicked, by my friend AJ, AJ said that my xbf is lucky that AJ is on probation, heh then I went home, and ran away to Omar's house, so he took us to the mall and he got caught stealing so we both got into trouble, so I was arressted too, and I fought this girl AGAIN, so when I got back home I got grounded, and as you can see, I'm not going through with it, lol well anyways, I'm going to call my friend and chill out, PM me if you want, I'll be here :)

damn I hate it when people view my blog and don't comment ;/

anywayz, skipped school today, bored out of my mind, tired as hell, depressed, and I have to deal with my big brothers soon... it can't get any worse than this, I have to go to court on friday for fighting this girl and kicking her ass....

~*~Life Sucks Then You Die So Fuck The World And Let's Get High~*~

--Blessed Be

I'm sorry

I'm sorry for wasting your time,
I'm sorry for taking back what's mine,
I'm sorry for breaking your heart,
But our love was falling apart,

I'm sorry that you're still mad,
I'm sorry that you miss the love that we "had",
I'm sorry that I was never there,
I'm sorry that I didn't get a chance to show you I care,

I'm sorry that you want to die,
I'm sorry that I made you cry,
I'm sorry for cheating on you,
And doing all these things that I can't undo,

I knew you were going to end up hurt all along,
I miss you but we aren't meant to be,
And After all these things that I've done wrong,
I have one thing to say... "I'm sorry"

By: ~*~Katrina~*~

Happy Valentines Day, Everyone!!!

Unfortanulty, I didn't get anything for Valentines Day. **Teartear** no one loves me anymore :(

But yeah, I had fun anyways, my xbf Aj called and said Happy Valentines Day, and I called my xbf Chris, and his father is a crack monkey I swear ;/.

He picked up the phone with his weird accent and said "hello" and I said "hey , may I speak to Chris" and he was like "who speaks with Chris?" and I said "Katrina...." so for like, 2 minutes he got quiet then he said "is this girl?" and I said "Yeah..." and he said "where are you from?" so I said "Connecticut" he was like "Connecticut? ahh, well Chris isn't home yet, he's at school" I was like "at school?!? It's 3pm he got out an hour ago! That's bullshit" and hung up.

He made absolutly NO sense... (Valentines Day sucks and can go to hell ;/)

heh but yeah , lovez ya all :)

xXxXx

*+*Blessed Be*+*

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~*~Trina~*~